A Journey From Me To Myself 20 years of marriage - 2 children - endless love of Husband - super support from my family!!!!
I Purvi Ashish Shah was Enjoying life without any constraints – A perfect Royal life. What more do you need from life? But will everything go on like this? No! Life means ups and downs. If things go as smoothly as one expects, wouldn't humans be arrogant creatures? And for this twist in the story is a must. And here it is:
Somewhere in the mid of November of 2017, I felt a lump formation in my breast which wasn’t painful at all nor problematic. initially I ignored it for a few days but then decided to visit the Doctor for the same. My Gynecologist suggested a mammography and sonography considering my age of 40 years. In the freezing diagnostic room, all alone, little scared, little worried the test was conducted. The Mammography Doctor asked me to come the next morning for my report.
Back home, Happily deciding about sending my daughter to the USA for further studies, we were to attend a seminar the next day after collecting the mammography report. Things in life are never certain and the mind is innocent enough to never look at the other side of the coin – It said ‘lets collect the report and attend the seminar’.
I reached the mammography center and the Doctor told me that it could be Cancer hence biopsy was to be done. “What cancer?” The earth beneath my feet started eroding. My entire body went numb and cold! What about my family, my children! I did not know how to behave. Here I called my Doctor friend and did an FNAC test - the report of which was negative. Then a Core Biopsy again the report was negative. The report of each test took at least 6-7 days and I could do nothing but cry in those days. And prayed to God for everything to come back to normal. In life we do not expect and accept Change. But The Change is the only constant in life. I prayed a lot and asked for forgiveness from all. Reports being negative I was relaxed and joyful. Here my Doctor friend told me not to be over joyful nor sad. He suggested I should get rid of the lump by surgery as he was still not convinced with the negative reports. On the day of surgery the Histopathologist was called to do a frozen section of the extracted lump. The report here was positive. The lump was malignant. Here instead of crying or being sad, I was convinced that this change had already come in life and I had no choice but to accept the fact. I never asked God as to why me, but prayed to give me the strength to fight against this beast. Come January 2018 and the procedure of 18 chemotherapies and Radiation treatment started. In the 1st cycle I felt weak and distorted. Before the 2nd cycle I lost all my hair but then I started finding myself to be beautiful and stronger than before to fight any situation in life.
All during this period of almost 12 odd months, I got a chance to stay with myself. Here I could understand that the materialistic pleasure is temporary and short-lived but the eternal pleasure and happiness is true and lasts forever. It is one’s family, their care and support which makes the person strong and ready to fight all the odds in life. So this story is not for those who think why me? or I can not! But for those who would be inspired by the same and take a step towards accepting the challenges in life with full spirit and positive attitude. I am always there connected to RACE to Rein-in Cancer to serve and help my fellows overcome this demon called Cancer. “CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS AND NO CHANGE WILL BE ABLE TO SHAKEN YOU!”
Thanks a lot.
regards,
Purvi Shah